Friday, April 11, 2008

Bedtime IS a BLAST!

Last night, I nursed my sweet baby for the very last time. I'd had the date in my head for a few weeks now and knew that it was time. So, as jammies got put on and the dreaded bedtime approached, I got all comfy in the red chair {like I always do} and squeezed my little man extra tight. I didn't turn on the TV like normal...my silly reality shows could wait! I needed to soak in this last special moment that I would have with my baby. It's hard to say goodbye to how peaceful and still he always gets at this time of night. It's hard to watch him scratch his little head as he eats for the last time. It's hard to let go of something that you've done numerous times a day for 380 days. It's hard to come to the realization that your baby doesn't "need " you in this way anymore! So, as tears rolled down my face, I looked at my sweet Quinn and thanked God for the blessing that it has been to bond with him in such a special way. ...After I fed him, I put his almost asleep little body to bed and cried a little more. How I have loved it! ... Then, tonight, I wondered how bedtime would go. I took him to his room and rocked him as I hummed a few songs. He didn't fall asleep, but I could tell it wouldn't take long. I prayed for him, kissed him, put him down and walked out. ...not a peep! So, I'm over it! Now, his jammies say it all..."Bedtime IS a BLAST!" Even though one season is over, now I'm going to cherish bedtime stories, prayers, and rocking him for a few minutes before he dreams away! ... Goodnight, my 'big boy!'

9 comments:

Summer, Justin, & Blake said...

As of tomorrow, THIS KITCHEN IS CLOSED TOO!!! So crazy these boys are getting SO BIG! I am glad the transition was as easy for Q as it was for B! :)

Tracey said...

Hi there! It was so nice to see you at Chick-fil-a. That baby Quinn is even more adorable in person... if that's possible! I've enjoyed peeking in at your life. - Tracey

I am Heather...creator of all things crafty! said...

You know you could have someone else in the house keep up the night time ritual...Just kidding.

crazymom said...

Oh I teared up reading your blog! Every mother who has ever nursed their child feels the same way you do! Its so wonderful to feel that close to your child,,,, and its as if they are growing up,, UHHHHH i loved breast feeding,,, and i miss it. but now,,, there will be a bit more freedoms your way too.(no more feeding in a dressing room...) good for you to feed for a year! your rock!!!

Northcutt Family said...

Way to go!! Hasn't a year gone by fast? We had so much fun going to CFA with you and Quinn! We definitely need to do that again and let them play in the little play area again!

Katy said...

Hey girl! Okay so I am thinking that we need to get coffee or lunch when I'm home next! I can't believe Q is 1!! I hope you are doing so great! :)

Love you!
P.S. I think that you would love that movie!

Trina said...

Hi. I am a friend of Heather Rice's. She shared with me that you know how to "slurp" your blog into a book. Can you tell me about this? My precious mother in law just went to be with Jesus last week and I have a 7 month old son who I want to know her the best that he can. My mother in law left tons of comments on my blog over the past 7 months. You can leave me a comment on my blog at www.bwntw.blogspot.com or email me at bwntw@yahoo.com. Thanks a ton!
Trina
PS- I loved your blog post about nursing. My little guy is not getting enough from me and I am only able to nurse morning and evening and you summed up all my feelings about nursing so well. Way to go to the year mark!

Chrys and Mike said...

so sweet, brought back memories. thanks for the post.

chrys

Laura said...

Made me cry because I totally understand that feeling! I am going to have the hardest time giving up breast feeding whenever that day comes, what a sweet special bond it is. But good for you being so positive and looking ahead!